2nd Psalm

Ah, Lord God, how glorious are Your ways!
I cried to You in desolate lands and You've knelt down to hold me in Your hands!

You speak softly to my heart and drive out all sorrow
You make me lie down in great, green pastures; You're my hope for tomorrow!

My God, my salvation, I love how You rescue me!
You enter the scene better than ANY hero saving the day and granting ME the victory!

My constant, faithful hope won't be turned away
For I know my Lord is faithful, just the same!

As You are faithful, so shall I be!
As You are loving, so shall I be!
As You are living, so shall I live!
As freely You've given, so freely I'll give!

I'll offer Your hope, Your healing
To a world You so love
I'll carry Your peace, Your comfort
Through the darkest valley-way.

I'll shout with joy and praise Your Holy Name,
I'll laugh, I'll cry, I'll love You
Through circumstances unchanged.

I'll grow according to the truth in Your Word; for Your Word is life to me,
I'll cling to all I know and trample evil principalities.

Your Word is alive and It's alive in me!
It causes my heart to beat stronger in the face of adversity!
Discouragement can't stop me; it can't even grab hold...
It merely serves as a catalyst; stirring me up in the Holy Ghost!

In You I live abundantly; a life unlimited and free
I lack and want for nothing; You so preciously take care of me!

My God, my Constant; my Unfailing Love,
Promising to never forsake me; I'll never be alone!
Not just beside me or leading the way,
You've made Your home inside me
And You'll keep it that way!

I can't turn You away from me,
I can't even drive You away!
You know all about my non-sense
And You love me anyway!

What a great, perfect and deep love the Father has for us!
Never stopping, relenting or decreasing, it's always the same!

When dark days come and trials head my way,
No matter how hard it is, I can never walk away.
Where else could I go and to whom could I turn?
Your plan for me is perfect; I can't do it my own way.

Through greatest trial and deepest heartbreak there's such solace to know:
My Father God is holding me and mending my shattered heart whole.

Joy unspeakable and full of glory is no longer unknown
Making Your Word greater than my circumstance has put fire in my bones!
When I spend time in Your Presence, I see Your plan unfold.
And as I pray in the Spirit, I can feel You healing my soul.

No greater love have I ever known;
In no greater way could You ever show
Than to take all the pain, tears and sorrow
And make them all Your Own.
Bearing the burdens I've casted, for You care for me
Bringing to me triumphant life; Christ in me, the hope of glory!

And that's my hope: You alone!
You alone have all my trust!
Circumstances may not change; yet again they may
But my Faithful God is faithful and full of hope and trust
And with me all the way.

1st Psalm

"It's gonna be alright; it's gonna be okay"
These are the promises Your Word proclaims,
"You'll make it, I'll see you through."
These words, I know, are coming from You.

I rely on You and freely receive
All the love and affection I'll ever really need.
Though I'm tired and weary, I know I can go on,
The power of God inside me propels me along!

My heart has failed me and my streams are dry;
My soul is longing for You and You've heard my cries.

When things work out, I praise Your Name,
And I praise You the same when things don't go according to plan.
My focus is You; steadfast is my gaze
On Perfect Love; completely sustains.

My hope is You and on You I hope
I place my faith in my God above.
You made Heaven and earth; life was created with a breath
Your intimate care; Your unending love.

When I'm broken, You take precious care
You mend my shattered pieces; make whole all that remains.
In brokenness I cry and I know You weep with me.
In a time of greatest trial; You are perfect peace!

My God, my Constant, my Unfailing Love,
You'll never forsake me, even when I'm wrong!
You listen to my hurts, complaints and regrets,
You simply restore me and tell me, "I'm not through with you yet!"

I'll never give up...no I never will.
The One, True God stands by my side; it's on Him that I lean and on Him that I depend.
It's in Him that I live, I move and all my being is.

My foundation crumbled yet still I stand.
Jesus, my Rock, is where I stand!
I didn't lose my footing, my footing lost me,
I'm still standing, moving and walking victoriously!

You make me lie down in peaceful, green pastures.
My waters don't rage; though life's storms may.
Your rod and staff comfort, support and protect me
From savage wolves and the places that wrong pathways lead.

In Your shadow I live
I find rest in You.
My hiding place is in Your secret place...
Where we meet Face to face.

How lovely are Your eyes and demanding is Your gaze!
Alone they command al honor, glory and praise.
Your lips are majestic, plumped with love, mercy and grace,
Your Words flow forth smoothly; like honey to my taste.

I don't want to know You by all that You've done,
Just to know You for Who You ARE is simply enough!
Glory to You and all praise is due!
I love You, my God and in You I trust.
Your will be done in my life, not mine own be done.
I give it all to You and in You I'll abide.

Belonging

It never fails! Any time you find yourself in the midst of the plan of God for your life, you will greet discouragement at some point like an old, long-lost friend! It's so simplistic that we can do what God has called us to do yet be led with tunnel-vision rather than noticing everything else at work around you. When we do this, we are not ONLY being led just by the things that we see but we are missing the actual unfolding of God's plan all around us and through us! I've always promised to be transparent with people. Whether it be one on one or through a blog, I've made it a point most of my life to just be genuine, transparent and, at times, raw. So here goes nothin'!

Lately I HAVE been a bit discouraged. Anyone that has read previous blogs or has spent any time with me in person at all could likely pick up on that. Despite ALLLLL the encouragement I received the last 2 years in Bible school and ALLLLL the great services and ALLLL the encouraging facebook status updates of favorite Rhema instructors such as Doug Jones and Karen Jensen, I've found myself discouraged. What sliced me like a dull sickle, however, was one particular status update by one of my aforementioned instructors. Now, I doubt that Mrs. Jensen takes the time to read my blogs, but just in case she does...thank you, Mrs. Karen! You rock! This is what the update said: "You can tell how big a person is by what it takes to discourage him."

Yeah...that one kinda hurt. What I had failed to realize is that I was viewing everything from the wrong perspective. I was choosing to look at my situations through a telescope rather than natural means. Beyond that, I was walking mostly by sight and only slightly by faith. When you do those things, it's EASY to succumb to apathy, discouragement, resentment, rebellion...I mean it just begins a vicious little cycle of garbage! You see, the enemy wants us to live life that way. He wants us to view things through the narrow scope of life, allowing all that we see to be distorted and minimal. God's plan, however, is SO much bigger...SO much more grand...SO much more and farther beyond all that we can see and all that we can hope and all that we can even possibly imagine!

It was almost intoxicating to me to hear from my cousin that her and her family were moving churches. I had become so distorted in my vision that I found myself actually CONSIDERING doing the same thing! She had faithfully attended my pastors dad's church and served as a worship leader and children's worker...she and her husband and children had grown more in this church than I'd ever seen them grow. So to put it simply to you, I was shocked when she called me that Sunday afternoon telling me that they had just attended their final service at that church! Well...I was shocked at first, anyway. Then I began to almost salivate at all the opportunities that they had before them! They were going to a bigger church. A church that had ALL kinds of different ministries from which one could serve in! A church that is modern and relevant and...everything I was beginning to see, through my distorted scope, that my church was not. Their church has children's ministry...youth ministry...men's ministry...college/career...cafe...and their view on praise and worship at that church matches more of my OWN idea of what it should be in a church. I mean, I was almost only a phone call away from hooking up with THAT church!

It's crazy, really. Putting things in perspective like that, placing words to that perspective and then reading over it. Wow. Anyway...I knew better than to just up and go without God either releasing me to do so or speaking to my heart about it. My emotions were telling me to run but my heart told me to stay. I wanted to make the move but I just knew that if God called me to come back home and serve at my church like I KNOW that He did (see, I was planning to stay for a 3rd year at Bible school but God made it evident that I was NOT to do that) then there HAS to be a reason for Him to have done that! So I decided that I was just gonna grin and bear it, albeit miserably so. I found that I was trying to convince myself that I no longer belonged at this church.

"I'm not even the worship leader. Sure, I lead the songs...but I'm not the worship leader...so what does it even matter?" "I'm not even an associate pastor. Sure, I fulfill those duties...but that's not my title either. So who really cares??" "I can't even start a college/career ministry. I can't even start a MEN'S ministry. My hands are tied! I can't do ANYTHING at this stupid church!" Yeah...those were actually thoughts belonging to yours truly. I know what I'm called to do and because I couldn't see myself DOING the things I'm called to do, I decided that I MUST not actually be doing them. I then heard my pastor say one thing to our head usher today while we were having worship band practice before service. That one thing, was simply..."Noah didn't wait for it to rain before he started building the boat..." Yes, I'm aware that I heard that totally out of context but it was exactly what I needed to hear. That was just God preparing my heart for the message tonight in youth. I won't cover the details of the message simply b/c I only remember the key points that cut straight to my heart.

Simply, I AM where I belong. I don't belong elsewhere. I don't belong back at Rhema. I don't belong in another church or ministry. It's NOT time for me to just go out and start my own church, either! God has placed me right where I am. And God's plan for me is HERE. He didn't place me here out of desperation or in error. He didn't place me here out of sequence. He placed me here for THIS TIME and for THIS SEASON and b/c of that truth then there IS a reason for it! This place has SOMETHING to do with God's plan in my life. And if I'm NOT in this God-place, then I will MISS what God is trying to do in me and through me.

Maybe you can relate. Maybe you can't relate. I had to type out this blog, however. Hopefully it will encourage any of you that find yourselves in a state of discouragement right now. I'm confident of one thing...God has a plan for you! And that plan is a GOOD plan and it is a PERFECT plan and ALL you have to do is follow Him and you will LIVE IN that plan! Some of you are in a place where you don't see yourselves accomplishing the same things that you felt God speak into your heart years ago. I encourage you to stop "looking" and just believe! Walk by faith in what God spoke to you and not by your own reasoning or understanding of the situation. If God spoke it, He didn't lie about it! I DON'T CARE where you find yourself right now! God has a plan for you and that plan will be accomplished! It doesn't matter what you see. If Noah had gone by all that he'd seen...if he had been discouraged by all that he heard, all creation would have been wiped from this earth! Listen to what God says! Listen to what His Word says! Forsake EVERYTHING else! Have faith in God!

Amen.

Can you hear it?

As I sit here alone in my apartment at 11:10 p.m., I have a deep yearning within me to blog.  More so than that, I have a deep yearning, a crying out in a sense for something.  Do you hear what I hear?

What is that sound?  What is that roar?  What is that desperate call?  What is this passionate outburst of emotion?  Do you feel it?  Can you sense it? 

I feel it.  I sense it.  And currently, with all that I am, I hear it.  My heart is flooded right now in a way that I can't currently express to you.  What is it? 

The world.  Those around me that don't know my Father.  Those around me that don't know my heavenly Father the way that I do.  I yearn for them to know.  I long for them to feel Him, to listen to Him.  This generation is lost and longing for something yet they just aren't sure what that something is.

I have your answer, generation.  He's the Answer for all generations.  His name is Jesus Christ, the Son of God sent to this earth as a man to take on all of our sins, sicknesses and  shortcomings.  He gave up His life for you.  He gave up EVERYTHING for you.  And He rose again for you.  He rose again for ALL of you!  I want you to know Him. 

I have to get this word out to this generation.  I have to tell them Who it is that they've been searching for all this time!  I have to prove to them that they will be giving up NOTHING to live for Him!  I know what they're thinking.."There has to be more to life than this!"  My response is this: THERE IS!!!

How can I let them know?  How can MY voice be heard around the world? 

What can I do about it?  How can I make a difference?

Am I going at this alone?  Do YOU care?  Do YOU hear it?  Do YOU feel it?  Will YOU respond to that outcry in your heart, my brother, my sister?  That outcry in your heart is none other than the very outcry of our Father to reach this world.  And if we won't LISTEN, if we won't HEAR it, if we won't take it...they will never know. 

Stir yourselves up, believers!  Stir yourselves up!  Your life is NOT your own!  Whatever God has giving you, He didn't give it for YOU to enjoy!  He gave it to you for you to take it to THEM!!  It's ALL about THEM!

My God.  I'm stirring right now.  Do you hear it yet?  Will you ever hear it yet?  Now is the time to rise up and be who God has called us to be!  Now is the time to take a stand and realize who we are in Christ so that we can effectively do His work as God's glorious church!  My goodness.  It's time to walk worthy.  These are the last, glorious days...if the harvest isn't ripe NOW then it never will be.  Let's do this, brothers!  Let's do this, sisters!  NOW is the time!  The time is NOW!  Glory to God!

If you aren't stirred up yet and you are a born-again believer, you need to re-evaluate your relationship with Jesus Christ!  If you aren't a believer yet then there is NO better time! 

The Bible says that if you will confess with your mouth and believe in your heart that Jesus Christ is Lord then you WILL be saved...pray this aloud with me if you'd like to experience life in abundance...

Father, I confess that I'm a sinner.  I believe that You have provided a way out for me though.  I believe that You sent Your Son, Jesus, to die for my sins.  Right now, God, I ask You to forgive me of my sins and cleanse me of all the things I've done in my past.  I want to live a new life and I want to live a new life with You as my Father.  Jesus Christ, I make You my Lord and I accept You as my Savior.  Thank You for forgiving me, cleansing me and saving me.  Amen.

If you prayed this prayer, let me know, I'd like to talk with you and congratulate you on your new life.

Love ya!